Agh, my heart...

Well, my yoga practice today was crazy intense. I am actually a bit shaky right now because of all the weird stuff happening in my body. I started today with the humming bee breath, (one of my absolute faves), and that put me in a nice peaceful headspace, ready to bliss out and enjoy my stretching. After a little cat stretch I moved into child's pose only to experience this rather acute and uncomfortable sensation in my chest. It was so unexpected! I thought, "Hello, what the hell are you doing there?" So I obviously had to investigate further.

I continued my practice with loads of chest openers and some forward bends too. (The strange sensation filled my whole chest cavity but was most pronounced at my breastbone). At one point I was in a reclined spinal twist, focusing on my chest, trying not to resist the sensation. I managed to relax into the feeling for a moment, and as I did I was overcome with sadness and the tears came out. But almost immediately I lost my vulnerability and began resisting again, letting the tension back in, and feeling buffeted by the waves of my inexplicable emotions. It was similar to an experience I had a couple days ago with my g-spot. The stimulation was getting so intense, and as I began to relax it got more intense and what did I do? I resisted it. I couldn't let go. And then the moment was gone.

I can only describe the feeling as tension or blockage. It sometimes literally feels like the breath is being opposed by this weird energy in there. It's pretty clear there is something major happening in my heart chakra but I'm completely perplexed about it. Even now, there is a distinct heaviness there, like a weight. What is going on? An investigation is clearly called for. What else do I have all those books for?